The agony of longing

Аннотация

The article describes the poetry of the famous Uzbek poet Uktamoy Koldorova [1]. Leading emotions in Uktamoy's poetry are a longing, a sense of sin, which transcends any poet. In her poems Uktamoy pays much attention to the description of nature's landscapes and twirling of the soul's states through their diverse colorful displays. Considering herself a part the nature the poetess tries to depict her joys and grieves in connection with different processes of the nature. We think that the poetry lovers and poetry admirers of our country will like this collection of poems in the English language. KEYWORDS: poetry, poetry, nostalgia, emotion, psyche, heart, distress, lines, quartet, work. I. INTRODUCTION There are many poems and many poets in the literary world. Every poet has their own singing and writing styles. As you begin to read some poems, the balance of emotions in your heart breaks, and in your psyche, unnamed sensations rebel, and you find enjoyment. You are afraid of losing the pleasure you get from the poem. Mostly, it is not too difficult to know which poet a particular poem belongs to, depending on the raised problem, the way it is written, and the way it is expressed. From the content it is possible to say that the feelings of sadness, sorrow and longing prevail in Uktamoy’s poetry [2]. Of course, a person who has no pain in the heart cannot be a poet. But in expressing this pain, every poet has their own specific ways. Everybody knows that there is no poet who does not sing love. However, some of them sing this feeling by crying, some by rebelling, some by worshipping and some by cherishing. Some poets idealize it, while others praise it as a normal human feeling. The fiery love in Uktamoy’s poetry is painful, grievous, longing, moanful and crying. Her heroes feel more pain, longing and loneliness in love than joy and happiness. Therefore, the poetess’s writings attract readers, because they also feel the pain. If they did not feel it, they would not read poetry. II. MAIN BODY The time interval from the last years of the twentieth century to the present remains as a “universalism period” in the history of world literature and art. Professor K.Yuldashev explains its reasons as follows: “... by this time, all the existing scientific views, creative methods, directions and philosophical schools in realizing and artistic expression of reality have used their full potential. That is why artistic trends and directions that have emerged in recent times have been characterized by such terms as “transrealism”, “postmodernism” and “poststructuralism”. It means that no direction in art and literature can be a monopoly” [3]. Uktamoy, an Uzbek representative of this universalistic era, is a poetess who has her sympathizers with a number of poetry collections, such as “Sog‘inch qushlari” (Birds of Longing) [4], “Sabrga suyanib” (Leaning on Patience), “Oqqush izlari” (Traces of the Swan) [5], Poems Black lonliness [6, 11], Toj Mahal [7] The Taj Mahal /ˌtɑːdʒ məˈhɑːl, ˌtɑːʒ-/ [8] lit. Crown of the Palace, [taːdʒ ˈmɛːɦ(ə)l]) [9] is an ivory-white marble mausoleum on the south bank of the Yamuna river in the Indian city of Agra. and “Tomayotgan ko‘ngil” (Dripping Heart). Bahrom Ruzimuhammad, a renowned poet, says about the poems of the poetess: “A poem should have a kind of embers that draw the reader’s attention. If common words are used in a poem, the reader will not enjoy it. With a deep understanding of this truth, Uktamoy tries to draw as many new images as possible. Most of her lines are permeated with love” [10]. One of the lines of the poetess draws the attention: “You, illuminated griefs, are 2004 JOURNAL CRITICAL REVIEWS OF ISSN- 2394-5125 VOL 7, ISSUE 18, 2020 welcome to the body, where I live according to your heart”. These lines make the reader think. Generally, grief is not called “illuminated”. After all, the human being has come to an understanding that he lives the whole life struggling with grief. Sometimes he overcomes, and sometimes he is overcome. No healthy person misses it or says: “Welcome”, and does not call it “illuminated”. Uktamoy’s originality as a poetess is evident when she makes an impossible job possible. Because these griefs, the need to expose the pain and sufferings in her psyche made her the poetess: “It is the grief in blossom that has made me a poetess out of mistakes from head to foot”. The poem ends with these lines: I’m an autumn, I can’t leave the hut of lonelinessTo a place where my emotions are pouring.The griefs driven to the Karbala Steppe,Are wandering in my heart wintering. These verses show that the lyric hero, who has lived a life full of grief in solitude for many years, becomes so accustomed to the grief and is united with it that she does not want to leave it. That is why she keeps the grief in her heart, and takes care of it. The poetess is full of joy and suffering with the grief. They cannot live without each other. Usually, everyone escapes the grief. Nob